Holidays

I don't think holidays are going to have special meaning to me anymore. I love the medical field it just it never pauses. My poor kids didn't understand why I had to work it's mothers day. They were crying. My mothers day was good for what I had of it. But as soon as I went to work that good went to the worst mother's day. I have never been around so many rude and ungrateful people in my life.
I know everyone takes their share of working holidays.I was feeling bad for one my patients. We had a mother's day brunch for them. Well my patient wasn't a mother. I felt bad she didn't get to have the tiny finger prints all over her house. She was so bitter.every time I went into her room it was 15 min. Of complaining. Then one of the lady's was making sure she got her attention. By screaming out in pain. I don't normally feel this way toward people. But I would barely touch her and she would scream. How am I hurting your hip when I putting in your oxygen tube.
If you can't tell I'm bitter. It's been 2 crappy nights of work. I'm sure I'll have one more. Not to mention I get a root canal on my birthday. Happy birthday to me! Can we get a new year I'm done with this one. I would of had it the day before my birthday. But Andy was having a hard time finding time to work with his work schedule. He has to get one too.I don't want him to put it off. So we switch spots. I'll do it for him because I love him.

School

So right now in life, I think I'm more negative now then I have ever been in my life.I know I'm not how I normally am. I finally did my hair yesterday in the first time in a month. Anybody who knows me that's big. I'm angry most of the time. I hate work right now and I'm too tired to focus on school.
My poor husband puts up with it all.I really want a pause button. So I can pause to sleep and do my school work and studying. But then I wouldn't have to interrupt with the daily routine of mom. I think that's my problem right now I bit of more then I can chew.
My kids let me know their mad that I'm never home. If I am home I'm studying. So their adding to my stress. Not only that Lexi wants to tryout for a competition team.I will have to start saving money for that.Jones will start playing soccer in the fall. All of this comes done to money which means. I will cut back on school so they can be kids.
Will is becoming my problem child. Andy and I have no idea what to even do with this kid.Andy calls him the impulsive liar. So because I'm a fix it problem person. I'm going to try a new few things let's see how it goes.
I keep telling myself pass these classes. Then I will cut back a lot. Which hopefully I will enjoy life. I know school is great. It will benefit me in long run.I love biology normally. But I don't care about photosynthesis. I don't see how plants deal with nursing and people. I have to stop this making more depressed looking and seeing this.

DraineD

I think for the first in while I feel emotionally and physically tired. Right now I'm finding my self shedding a few tears. I want to yell at people. I know deep down I know it's not going to do anything or help. But the frustration of trying to be a good person and obey certain things are getting to me. I have never felt more like white trash in my life.

It doesn't help with kids acting up.Lexi is going through stage were she is so sassy. Sometimes I just want to turn back times when she was little.I really like when they don't know how to flap that lip of theirs. I don't understand how Will has those big ears and he doesn't listen. Jones watches them and acts up. I love it when I was able to put him in his crib.when he Couldn't get out.when I was able to have that minute I needed to grasp my emotions.

Better news my kitchens back together. But my living room going to get torn up now. I can't take the messes. This is the worst spring break. I've had in a long time. I really need to man up.will see how I feel by the end of the week.

Our life

So I should be doing homework right now.But this Is what my life has become. Honestly I'm quite sick of it. Well my family is doing pretty well. Lexi's good.
Will is my trouble child right now. He's having to wash base boards and clean his bathroom. Did I mention a dress is involved. He's having to wear one. so he realizes honestly is good thing and that you don't lie to mom and dad. Because we always find out.always!
Jones is my terror too.I would love if I could drop him off at places and he wouldn't freak out. Yes, he truly is terrible. I guess he bit and kicked Holly. I know it didn't help I had to pry him off of me.Sorry Holly!he won't go to nursery. I love him. But he's nothing like my other 2.
I have a new calling I'm teaching in relief society. Stay tuned I don't know how I will do on like 2 or 3 hours of sleep. It will be interesting.
Andy is great. He's picking up where I leave off. The best part is I don't even have to ask him. Which is nice to see. He has truly surprised me when he said it's my turn to do something for myself. I have to be honest it's nice.But bitter sweet as well. I'm tired all the time. I don't want to miss out on my kids stuff. I will give up sleep to spend time with Andy and the kids.

Zumba

I know i know i' m horrible for saying this but I can't help it. I love those people who are not coordinated. This girl almost knocked everyone over today in class. At the same time she's acting all sexy. I love it! Then their's a girl who is so dramatic in every dance she does. Oh it's a great stress reliever class.
Jones is crazy we're trying to potty trainig. He'll go 3 or 4 days with no accidents. Then he'll go 2 days straight of just going in his pants. I hate this he's so different then my other 2. If he desn't get what he wants he throws a tantrum and hits.
I hate school all I do is homework and clean the house. I want a change of this. I keep saying a couple semesters then I can have a break.

So i thought I would take minute and write a few things down. My life is crazy with school and working. I'm enjoying my kids and the ages they are. For the first time in a while my baby isn't a baby anymore. It actually made me a little sad. But i'm excited to have him older (3yrs). Jones is going to be able to go to preschool after his birthday. It's crazy to think my baby getting bigger and older.

Well I took a couple of video's watching Jones dancing to Despicable Me. Check them out it's funny.

Well I wished I took a picture or had a better video take of Lexi's hip hop solo. She has ballet venue at the end of Jan. Which I'm very excited to watch. Although It brings tears to my eyes to watch her dance. I love to watch her a ballet routine. She so graceful in it. It really is a suprise. she's a clutz.

Will he's a charcter he's pretty funny. I wish i had taken picture or video of him playing his DS. The way he moves it. I'm proud of him he's learning how to read. I like reading with him and practing. He actually will try. When Lexi was learning she wouldn't try. I'm going to put him in soccer or maybe basketball. I'm hoping he won't talk crap to the other team.

If you can't tell we're busy. I do all this sometimes on 6 hrs of sleep for 3 days. It nuts but it has to be done. I do it all for my family.

my family

Here's a few more pictures. Will had us laughing. His random things he says. I can't believe I have such an amazing family. I'm so lucky i get to grow old with these guys.